Alone Time

I still wrestle with alone time vs being social.

It took me a while to realize that there’s an ebb-and-flow to both ends of the spectrum. And that both are needed.

But it’s still hard to figure when to switch, and how to ramp up either. 

For example, right now, I’m realizing I’d like to be more social, but being in a new city–it’s hard to ramp that up quickly. And then eventually I know, I’ll want to ramp down, but then feel bad about breaking rhythm with people.

It’s also hard to figure out how intense to go. It’s nuanced to tell someone that you want like 20 texts, but 30 is way too many right now. It’s to hard to say that I’m even that fickle to need that specificity. 

Maybe I’m over-feeling the disruption, and everyone already gets it. But I dunno because I already want alone time, so I’m not texting anybody right now. 

Or maybe I should??